Sunday, September 11, 2005

ro-tate (under-construction ramblings)

...i turned south and i couldn't find the sun...to my left again and nothing...all i did was to follow the angel that spreads the light on our earth...and i couldn't see it nor realize until i was too far away...as one realizes that its not the same room from the outside...the inside is so magnificent that the hole from the outside looked like a hole...on the whole i couldn't get it...as i was unable to pass my body through the hole...watching from outside one would think how the hell did he manage to get inside in the first place...he couldn't have been in the hole for years that he's grown bigger than the whole...but rarely do we realize that there are always 2 entrances to every situation...getting into and getting out of...but for a hole it seems there's just one...from the inside the hole was the sun, the ultimate source of energy, the god of unreachable heights, the shining star, the gate to resurrection, the portal for life, the exit to fresh air...but from the outside it told a different story...it seemed like a mole on the fair skinned forest...a dark pit where no one could ever survive or come back...it associated its dark secrets with bats, rats, spiders, snakes and all the reptiles you can name...i carved my name a thousand times on the mountain but no one could see them, they said "Ah! how beautiful nature is, look at how water has poured into the veins of these rocks."...they called my name as some ancient scripture and fossils of dead leaves...it was not the water but my fingers that carved into the mother nature herself...hold her up like lifting the mountains and filling the pores with my dripping blood...i used to sneeze at the stink of these vaporising fumes...and fill my nostrils with some sand...to avoid irritation increase irritation...but on the whole "where there's a hole there's a way!"